Maybe I don't know me yet

So I'm writing this to say that I have no idea who I am. I am beginning to define what I want, but it Is very loose and is very much dependant upon what God wants (because I want what He wants but I don't know what that is just yet in its entirety nor do I ever know if I'll ever know). I'm writing this to say that maybe I need to take some "me time" which isn't just chilling, nor is it chatting on msn which are things I enjoy to do but to take time to figure out who I am, ask life the tough questions, ask God the tough questions and allow His answers to speak into my life. Maybe I'll figure me out, maybe I won't but I do believe that maybe there is someone out there who is able to join me in this quest. This quest I once thought was to find "the One" but maybe I already have "the One" and the one is Jesus, and my quest is just to find him… and "the One" that I thought I was looking for is simply a partner to join me in this quest and together we would find "the One" in Jesus rather than finding "the One" in each other. I suppose this is an "I have no idea" post and I'm just happy to know that I know someone who does.

I find that I look for definitive's and I like them very much, but I know that some definitive's are not definitive at all, but are a shifting static as it were, a liquid concrete, diamond powder that even though it is an oxymoron it is what I have thus far. Maybe I'm on the right track.