Kids, views, etc.

I have at one point recently felt that my life would be OK without kids, this would present all sorts of opportunities. I could mentor kids who's fathers weren't the fathers that they should be and I could pour out into kids that needed it even though I wasn't their biological father. I have felt OK with the thought of not having a spouse, of living the rest of my life as a bachelor. and to this day God is enough that He is my sustainer that these beautiful aspects of life are nothing in comparison to God and what He provides. But I know that God will use these things to bless me in a way that I can't describe. Though I can paint you a picture... a moment when everything appears to be crashing around you head burried in your hands the only thing your mind can think about is the failure that you are when all of a sudden you feel the warmth of a hand rubbing your back and instantaneously the tears turn from defeat and failure and turn to the love you have for that woman who has stood by your side time and time again and just how gateful you are to the fact that God has blessed you in such a way. that kind of joy is indescribable in a literary sense but everyone can relate to and hopes for in some way or another. The other image I would like to give is this, you have "one of those weeks" where things just seem to be dead, and you begin to ask yourself "Am I useful?", "do I have a purpose", and "is what I'm doing actually filling a purpose"... and then you go home and you see your son or daughter, and it reminds you that even if your career isn't doing anything, your every action is impacting this young one to grow up and be the Man or Woman that God is intending them, and you have that purpose and meaning.

I need to take a quick moment to make a distinction. It is this author's firm belief that every single person has a purpose to fulfill that may or may not include kids and a spouse, and it is my hope that your purpose goes outside of and beyond kids and a spouse because your kids and spouse will never be able to give you meaning. It is God who will do that, and He wants to do it and will give you the joy, peace, and understanding necessary to complete this.

In Him,
Lucas