control

There are times that I feel down, but there are times like now... that I feel, that I know that God is sooo good that if I had any control in this life that it would be in shambles... if it were up to me I would be married, but since it were up to me I would already be divorced. if it were up to me I would already be pastoring, but my control means that the church would be in shambles. Sister, my God is bigger than me, than my wants or needs... and ultimately, He is good.

may my prayer be this, that you and I would give up our own control. May you and I give up to God, control so that we might have the ultimate promise that God has for us. Ladies and Gentlemen, may I say something to you?

I preach it to you as much as I preach it to me. WAIT! it hurts to fall asleep every night by yourself, it hurts to watch your favourite movies and not have people to share your joy with you. It definitely hurts to see couples, and think "what's wrong with me?" "what am I possibly doing wrong?"... there may be nothing that you are doing wrong, and there is definitely nothing wrong with you. You aren't ready yet, I am not ready yet.

I would like to say one last thing. To whom it may concern, I'm waiting for you, my bride. May you know I'm getting to where you are as fast as I can, and I am waiting for you as you are waiting for me. Know that I long for your embrace, and that someday we can share it.